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I'm really tired. Being awake for 22 hours will do that to you.

Writing class was interesting today. It focussed more on whether one girl who is a classical cellist and also alterna-punky should "tone down" her appearance for auditions and settle in to being the departmental Freak in a conservative school, or either go elsewhere or do something else, than it did on her story that sparked this conversation. Conservative Twit Hockey Star who sits behind me thinks that everyone who puts blue streaks in their hair is doing it for attention. Nothing said could pound it into his head that some people just do it because they think blue is a pretty color.

Anyway, the prof announced what people need to turn in to pass the class (we have a word number requirement, more or less), and when he got to me he said, "Now, I wish there were a way to give a higher grade than A+ to a student, because she [meaning me] has really earned it with this one. You guys are going to critique it on Tuesday, but you'd better get out your fine-toothed combs and magnifying glasses, because you're going to have a hard time figuring out what the problems are." (YAY!) I spouted, "Oh, I know what the problems are, I'm just curious as to whether other people see the same problems or I'm just being too hard on myself." People were practically rubbing their hands together in nefarious glee, looking to toss me medicine balls in the stomach (since I'm a "strong critic"). Well, I guess we'll see.

Then on to art, where I found out that ALL my stuff is due in FIVE DAYS. That means I have to complete one major assignment per day. I thought I had another 2 weeks, so I am about to cryyyyyy. Well, there are these four paintings that aren't due for another two weeks. But that's still a lot to have done by Tuesday. and I have to have 5 more portfolio pieces prepared by Thursday, too. MEH.

Now I'm tired and about to go to the post office to mail some stuff and pick up my Japanese Blythe doll. Books I ordered from Amazon also came; an art book (Mark Ryden) and some graphic novels and Diana Vreeland's autobiography and Erika Lopez's They Call Me Mad Dog.

After that I plan to sleep a lot, if my intravenous consumption of coffee and Wild Cherry Pepsi hasn't made it impossible.

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[ayun.livejournal.com]

Conservative Twit Hockey Star who sits behind me thinks that everyone who puts blue streaks in their hair is doing it for attention.

I kinda think people more or less do everything for attention. But I also don't think that's a bad thing at all. It's all about how you look at it. I mean, you wear stuff that you think looks good on you, or do your makeup a certain way to achieve a certain look so that people will look at you and notice you. That goes equally for ski sweaters and baseball caps as for blue hair and facial piercings. I'm wearing my burgundy pants with the embroidery down the leg because I think they're pretty and cool. I think they're pretty and cool because I don't see people wearing these kinda pants so often. Also they're a great color. I wear them because I know they look good on me and people will notice them. So? Who doesn't want to be noticed? All of social interaction can be boiled down to looking for attention in one form or another. Who cares?

Anyway, good luck with the crit. I hated those classes. Have you read "Blue Angel" by Francine Prose? There's really funny scenes set in an undergrad fiction workshop.

[verbminx.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. I don't know. Maybe things are done for attention, but not always for attention from *everyone* - just tribal attention. For instance, when I was really goth, I hated the attention I got on the street, and wanted to be left alone, and always felt judged - it honestly really *messed* with my self-esteem. But I did like positive attention from other freaks. But for the most part, I just dyed my hair purple because I thought purple was a pretty color and more "me" at the time than blonde was.

Funny you should mention Blue Angel. This professor once flat-out told me that he had a crush on me.

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[ayun.livejournal.com]

Yeah, definitely specific sorts of attention - from everyone, or from specific people or groups, or to elicit a certain reaction. (Some people do dress like freaks because they want to be aesthetically antagonistic...)

But, really, we wear stuff we think looks good, and looks good on us. What difference does it make if nobody's looking? (I don't think this is a bad thing at all, in case that wasn't clear.)

I was gonna say it's kinda icky that your prof has a crush on you, but then I remembered the guy who taught my sociology class freshman year and changed my mind. Damn was he...intelligent. :)

[verbminx.livejournal.com]

Haha, well, with this prof, it's kinda icky. I don't know if he still has le crush on me, honestly: he liked freak girls and I don't look that freaky anymore, aside from the facial piercing.

I got that you didn't think it was a bad thing. Conservative Twit Hockey Star, though, was saying that anyone who dresses or looks outside the norm is doing it to be "aesthetically antagonistic" (good choice of words) - to be bratty and get attention. Which I disagreed with.

[syrxx.livejournal.com]

Nefarious... I love the way that sounds. It rolls off the tongue. (*grins* Silly thing to comment but my eye caught the word and stayed with it for an inordinate amount of time. I had to say it out loud a couple times... nefarious. It is a beautiful word!)

nefariousity

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it goes with twirling your moustache and rubbing your hands together and saying "muahahahaha!" hee hee!

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[syrxx.livejournal.com]

Ohh! You know what? That is the perfect word to describe the villian who is always putting the tied up heroine on the train tracks! You hit it!

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"if you don't give me the deed to yo' ranch, I'm gonna saw y'all up in half!"