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I'm really tired. Being awake for 22 hours will do that to you.

Writing class was interesting today. It focussed more on whether one girl who is a classical cellist and also alterna-punky should "tone down" her appearance for auditions and settle in to being the departmental Freak in a conservative school, or either go elsewhere or do something else, than it did on her story that sparked this conversation. Conservative Twit Hockey Star who sits behind me thinks that everyone who puts blue streaks in their hair is doing it for attention. Nothing said could pound it into his head that some people just do it because they think blue is a pretty color.

Anyway, the prof announced what people need to turn in to pass the class (we have a word number requirement, more or less), and when he got to me he said, "Now, I wish there were a way to give a higher grade than A+ to a student, because she [meaning me] has really earned it with this one. You guys are going to critique it on Tuesday, but you'd better get out your fine-toothed combs and magnifying glasses, because you're going to have a hard time figuring out what the problems are." (YAY!) I spouted, "Oh, I know what the problems are, I'm just curious as to whether other people see the same problems or I'm just being too hard on myself." People were practically rubbing their hands together in nefarious glee, looking to toss me medicine balls in the stomach (since I'm a "strong critic"). Well, I guess we'll see.

Then on to art, where I found out that ALL my stuff is due in FIVE DAYS. That means I have to complete one major assignment per day. I thought I had another 2 weeks, so I am about to cryyyyyy. Well, there are these four paintings that aren't due for another two weeks. But that's still a lot to have done by Tuesday. and I have to have 5 more portfolio pieces prepared by Thursday, too. MEH.

Now I'm tired and about to go to the post office to mail some stuff and pick up my Japanese Blythe doll. Books I ordered from Amazon also came; an art book (Mark Ryden) and some graphic novels and Diana Vreeland's autobiography and Erika Lopez's They Call Me Mad Dog.

After that I plan to sleep a lot, if my intravenous consumption of coffee and Wild Cherry Pepsi hasn't made it impossible.

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Hmmm. I don't know. Maybe things are done for attention, but not always for attention from *everyone* - just tribal attention. For instance, when I was really goth, I hated the attention I got on the street, and wanted to be left alone, and always felt judged - it honestly really *messed* with my self-esteem. But I did like positive attention from other freaks. But for the most part, I just dyed my hair purple because I thought purple was a pretty color and more "me" at the time than blonde was.

Funny you should mention Blue Angel. This professor once flat-out told me that he had a crush on me.

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[ayun.livejournal.com]

Yeah, definitely specific sorts of attention - from everyone, or from specific people or groups, or to elicit a certain reaction. (Some people do dress like freaks because they want to be aesthetically antagonistic...)

But, really, we wear stuff we think looks good, and looks good on us. What difference does it make if nobody's looking? (I don't think this is a bad thing at all, in case that wasn't clear.)

I was gonna say it's kinda icky that your prof has a crush on you, but then I remembered the guy who taught my sociology class freshman year and changed my mind. Damn was he...intelligent. :)

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Haha, well, with this prof, it's kinda icky. I don't know if he still has le crush on me, honestly: he liked freak girls and I don't look that freaky anymore, aside from the facial piercing.

I got that you didn't think it was a bad thing. Conservative Twit Hockey Star, though, was saying that anyone who dresses or looks outside the norm is doing it to be "aesthetically antagonistic" (good choice of words) - to be bratty and get attention. Which I disagreed with.