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Jan. 8th, 2001 03:10 amI ended up sleeping a little earlier than I meant to, by maybe an hour. My ear hurts, feels like the infection is coming back, and I'm dazed, but generally I feel better than I have in the past few days. I woke up at 1:30 or so.
When I woke up, D-cat had planted himself at my side and would not move to let me out of bed. I had to get up on the other side. He still has not moved, large white body curled on my comforter, staring balefully up at me through his intensely blue eyes. But he's happy; he's getting attention, he's glued to me.
Unlike yesterday, today I'm actually going to get things done (well, I did get small things done here and there). The next time I wake up it will be to get ready to go to school again. That scares me. I started to feel mildly better when school wasn't on my mind all the time, when there was less stress and pressure.
I'm taking two classes, it should be easy enough, but I'm worried that I'll quickly digress to an inability to get out of bed again, with the stress. Even holding my drawing tablet is painful, it's so heavy, and I have to use a horse because I can't stand for two hours while drawing the model. There are ways around it, though... if I remember to cut like ten sheets of paper before each class, if I see about having an easel and a horse I can switch between, things like that. Remember that to begin with I don't need that many supplies. Might work mostly with Conté because it's less messy and I like the look better, but it's also more expensive so I'm not sure. I'm not worried about Art History, just Figure Drawing. & I was angsting in the same way three or four months ago for the same reasons.
So, the rest of the day is something like "do laundry! change the sheets! go foodshopping! clean in living room and bathroom!" And that should be OK. Refer to unquietmind's recent entry on lazy people for a larger understanding of why I want to push my limits. I may be sick, I may be tired, but there are still things that need to get done.
When I woke up, D-cat had planted himself at my side and would not move to let me out of bed. I had to get up on the other side. He still has not moved, large white body curled on my comforter, staring balefully up at me through his intensely blue eyes. But he's happy; he's getting attention, he's glued to me.
Unlike yesterday, today I'm actually going to get things done (well, I did get small things done here and there). The next time I wake up it will be to get ready to go to school again. That scares me. I started to feel mildly better when school wasn't on my mind all the time, when there was less stress and pressure.
I'm taking two classes, it should be easy enough, but I'm worried that I'll quickly digress to an inability to get out of bed again, with the stress. Even holding my drawing tablet is painful, it's so heavy, and I have to use a horse because I can't stand for two hours while drawing the model. There are ways around it, though... if I remember to cut like ten sheets of paper before each class, if I see about having an easel and a horse I can switch between, things like that. Remember that to begin with I don't need that many supplies. Might work mostly with Conté because it's less messy and I like the look better, but it's also more expensive so I'm not sure. I'm not worried about Art History, just Figure Drawing. & I was angsting in the same way three or four months ago for the same reasons.
So, the rest of the day is something like "do laundry! change the sheets! go foodshopping! clean in living room and bathroom!" And that should be OK. Refer to unquietmind's recent entry on lazy people for a larger understanding of why I want to push my limits. I may be sick, I may be tired, but there are still things that need to get done.
