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Jul. 19th, 2001 03:02 amI feel good things happening.
Like... finding parts of myself that I missed, thinking they were lost. Something I said a while ago about losing all my magic, having no eye for fantasy or romance. Yeeeeeaaaaah. Lately I want to wear long flowy skirts a lot again, and grow my hair out, and read stuff I haven't read since I was sixteen. (My god. Is it really almost ten years since I was sixteen?) And accomplish things. and I am accomplishing things, thank you. It's not about drama, it's about dreams. and occupying myself. and just being happy in my own skin.
Another thing is that one of my Chronic Fatigue / Fibro books has a chart of how to describe your symptoms. 0 is mostly bedridden; 10 is feeling well enough to participate in outdoor sports. At the beginning of this year I was around a 3 (which means you can get up, you might be able to go out for a few hours, but you need tons of rest, you can't walk a lot or do a lot of chores, etc) - actually I started a little higher, but hadn't been there for long; I dropped right down when I got sick after school starting. I've wavered through the year so far, but since I've been on my stupid irritating diet and taking my pills, I've been at about a 5 or 6. This seems stable as long as I watch what I eat and remember to take things like CoQ10 and EFA pills. Just one step higher is well enough to work part-time if I rest a lot, and above that is full-time but it consumes all energy (which means that I should be able to handle part-time school next semester). I'm keeping my fingers crossed and still trolling through recipes. I pulled out our copy of The Yeast Connection Cookbook, which is friendlier than the stuff I've been using and has a lot of good-lookin' soup recipes. I also saw a book that I want to pick up, called Feast Without Yeast. It even comes with shopping lists for the different phases of My Stupid Diet. This would be very helpful as we always become stupid in grocery stores, and forget a lot of things.
One not-good thing is that I'm getting aggravated about something. That friend of mine who turned out, about six months ago, to be false? Well, I have written to her a few times asking her to return some stuff of mine that I lent to her. It continues to fail to appear. It's a bunch of (probably irreplaceable) videotapes, and a couple of books. I think I've been nice about it, all things considered; now I'm becoming irritated. I'm not going to be a bitch about it, because there's no point. I just wish I knew of another way to deal with it and actually get my stuff back.
I am very pleased with having my new mailbox set up. When people reply or write to me at my email address, it's actually NOT a pain to see it anymore like it was with webmail. Woot!
Like... finding parts of myself that I missed, thinking they were lost. Something I said a while ago about losing all my magic, having no eye for fantasy or romance. Yeeeeeaaaaah. Lately I want to wear long flowy skirts a lot again, and grow my hair out, and read stuff I haven't read since I was sixteen. (My god. Is it really almost ten years since I was sixteen?) And accomplish things. and I am accomplishing things, thank you. It's not about drama, it's about dreams. and occupying myself. and just being happy in my own skin.
Another thing is that one of my Chronic Fatigue / Fibro books has a chart of how to describe your symptoms. 0 is mostly bedridden; 10 is feeling well enough to participate in outdoor sports. At the beginning of this year I was around a 3 (which means you can get up, you might be able to go out for a few hours, but you need tons of rest, you can't walk a lot or do a lot of chores, etc) - actually I started a little higher, but hadn't been there for long; I dropped right down when I got sick after school starting. I've wavered through the year so far, but since I've been on my stupid irritating diet and taking my pills, I've been at about a 5 or 6. This seems stable as long as I watch what I eat and remember to take things like CoQ10 and EFA pills. Just one step higher is well enough to work part-time if I rest a lot, and above that is full-time but it consumes all energy (which means that I should be able to handle part-time school next semester). I'm keeping my fingers crossed and still trolling through recipes. I pulled out our copy of The Yeast Connection Cookbook, which is friendlier than the stuff I've been using and has a lot of good-lookin' soup recipes. I also saw a book that I want to pick up, called Feast Without Yeast. It even comes with shopping lists for the different phases of My Stupid Diet. This would be very helpful as we always become stupid in grocery stores, and forget a lot of things.
One not-good thing is that I'm getting aggravated about something. That friend of mine who turned out, about six months ago, to be false? Well, I have written to her a few times asking her to return some stuff of mine that I lent to her. It continues to fail to appear. It's a bunch of (probably irreplaceable) videotapes, and a couple of books. I think I've been nice about it, all things considered; now I'm becoming irritated. I'm not going to be a bitch about it, because there's no point. I just wish I knew of another way to deal with it and actually get my stuff back.
I am very pleased with having my new mailbox set up. When people reply or write to me at my email address, it's actually NOT a pain to see it anymore like it was with webmail. Woot!
