Feb. 16th, 2001

Today was pretty dull....

I got dragged out of bed on very little sleep. Highlights were a nice turkey-w/-dressing lunch & dropping a mess of things off at a thrift store, where I got several old albums with cool covers for my album frame, and a terrifying old doll head. Add 20 minutes or so of grocery shopping, and that was enough for me. Came home and watched TV from 8-10PM and then put on the tape of the dog show from earlier this week.

The Bichon who won Best In Show was really cute! & it's looking like my mom is interested in the Cavalier King Charles Spaniels, which would be really cool. She's not as interested in the Boston Terrier though. I guess we'll see... we still have a lot of "doggieproofing" to do in the house before we can actually get one.

I'm tired and headachy. I'll either read and snack for a bit and go to sleep, or just go to sleep. It's almost 2:30 (despite what the time on this entry says). I think I might have some oatmeal to keep myself from waking up sick.
OK, going to bed now. I have caught up on the news and have been talking to Autumn and Ragdoll. My ears are bothering me more than usual; I bought ear candles today, but upon reading the instructions discovered they are somewhat more complicated than previously suspected. My head hurts. I'm amazingly tired and off to bed in a few minutes.

I hurt my arm in the car today. Shifted in my seat and it got pinched, somehow, a few inches above the wrist, in the clasp of the seatbelt. Now I have a 2"x.5" bruised welt in the soft part of my inner arm. It doesn't hurt that much, but it hurts to think about. The spectre of the pain is worse than the actual aftermath. Thinking about it makes me cringe so I use my brain to prod around the idea, not quite touching on it. I'm clumsy and I bruise easily and this is no worse than the 2 or 3 others I get on any given day, except that the skin is so tender and the initial pain was so shattering that I wondered if I'd torn out a chunk.

Lately I am afraid a lot. Afraid of school, afraid of my email, afraid to interact with people while I'm out because so many have been so unpleasant. Panic symptoms are escalating a bit. I bought KavaKava, and I'm trying to be as calm as possible, get enough sleep, eat well and take vitamins, etc. Today a girl at the restaurant went out of her way to hold a door open for me and I think I should try to remember that as much as the woman who went out of her way to yell at me.

I'm so tired - ready to be soft and heavy under a cloud of down. Ready to be lost somewhere for eight hours, ready for tomorrow and the weekend, ready to walk across the city and back and throw away everything useless I've ever owned. Sleep gets in the way of other things I want to do, need to do, but I enjoy sleep so much. It should be an Olympic sport. I could win a silver in REM and a gold in dreaming.

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