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Mar. 20th, 2001 01:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
verbminxUneventful evening. Spent most of it dyeing my hair red, a mix of nuclear red and blood red by Special Effects. I let it soak for 4 hours, it should last for a month. I read, I looked for several yarns online which proved difficult to find.
After I rinsed my head out, came and checked my email to find mail from both my old friend S. (the exbf who is now in Boston) and WB, who is... I dunno. A little distant. Hurried, pulling all-nighters lately. Apparently things are over with the last girl and he is exuberantly chasing another, which would be a weekend relationship. I am resisting attempts/suggestions that would push us closer together because... I don't feel like it's a good time, if there ever were to be one it would not be now. & there are plenty of fish in the sea... if my hook is barren it is because i am not baiting it. but would i bait it for him, or am i NOT baiting it BECAUSE of him? I don't think so. i get lonely but i really do not think i am together enough for a real grown-up relationship. which is the only kind i can accept, at this point.
so, that is what i have done - the usual dull stuff while my head soaked in dye, and those emails. I have some work to do and will probably go to sleep in an hour or two.
After I rinsed my head out, came and checked my email to find mail from both my old friend S. (the exbf who is now in Boston) and WB, who is... I dunno. A little distant. Hurried, pulling all-nighters lately. Apparently things are over with the last girl and he is exuberantly chasing another, which would be a weekend relationship. I am resisting attempts/suggestions that would push us closer together because... I don't feel like it's a good time, if there ever were to be one it would not be now. & there are plenty of fish in the sea... if my hook is barren it is because i am not baiting it. but would i bait it for him, or am i NOT baiting it BECAUSE of him? I don't think so. i get lonely but i really do not think i am together enough for a real grown-up relationship. which is the only kind i can accept, at this point.
so, that is what i have done - the usual dull stuff while my head soaked in dye, and those emails. I have some work to do and will probably go to sleep in an hour or two.
