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Dec. 1st, 2000 12:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
verbminxI still haven't settled my head for my five hours of sleep. But I'm about to.
I just emptied out a mailbox I haven't checked since July - was unable to check. It was my main mailbox at the time but anyone important knew where else to look for me. I got two messages from old high school friends, one of them quite welcome, the other strange.
The strange one was from the Crazy Friend - you know, the person you're friends with most of the time even though they are, well, crazy. This girl took a lot out on me when she was mad about something, because she was hyper-jealous of me at the time. I didn't really keep in touch with her after graduation. She started on heavy psychiatric drugs (which she needed) just after graduation. She'd been kicked out of her own high school across town at the end of junior year, and transferred to mine - I had already known her for some time. She was primarily jealous of me because I had better professional prospects in voice, but honestly - there were rugs that she ripped out from under me, plenty of them. & I worked hard to be nice to her. I don't really know if I want to be in touch with her. The tenor of her message was probably jokey, but it could have been taken another way. I sent her back a jokey message but I really... hm. Even the good friend of mine that she co-opted doesn't have anything to do with her anymore, so the last time I heard any stories of this girl, they were "oh how sad her life has become!" but come on, i still live with my parents and don't have a job or a BA/BFA, so I can't hold any of that against her!
The N-cat wreaths around me, attempting to draw me to the sleepy spot so he can snuggle up. I think he's a smart kitty.
So I just emptied 1800 messages out of one of my mailboxes and hopefully as a result I should be able to get my domain up and running. I was finally able to send in the host change request form. Yay! I hope it works!
I feel very banal today. This week, in fact. I could be extravagant and go for the whole year. Thing is - is saying so low-self-esteem in action or just being realistic? I don't think it makes me a bad person or not worthwhile, but I also know that I'm not the most interesting or productive person in the world right now, and...
bah. Sleep first. Then madrig-hells. Then I come home and either sleep some more or compile the food list of things I need to buy. Then sometime this weekend I will go shopping, so I can severely restrict my diet and hopefully GET BETTER!
I just emptied out a mailbox I haven't checked since July - was unable to check. It was my main mailbox at the time but anyone important knew where else to look for me. I got two messages from old high school friends, one of them quite welcome, the other strange.
The strange one was from the Crazy Friend - you know, the person you're friends with most of the time even though they are, well, crazy. This girl took a lot out on me when she was mad about something, because she was hyper-jealous of me at the time. I didn't really keep in touch with her after graduation. She started on heavy psychiatric drugs (which she needed) just after graduation. She'd been kicked out of her own high school across town at the end of junior year, and transferred to mine - I had already known her for some time. She was primarily jealous of me because I had better professional prospects in voice, but honestly - there were rugs that she ripped out from under me, plenty of them. & I worked hard to be nice to her. I don't really know if I want to be in touch with her. The tenor of her message was probably jokey, but it could have been taken another way. I sent her back a jokey message but I really... hm. Even the good friend of mine that she co-opted doesn't have anything to do with her anymore, so the last time I heard any stories of this girl, they were "oh how sad her life has become!" but come on, i still live with my parents and don't have a job or a BA/BFA, so I can't hold any of that against her!
The N-cat wreaths around me, attempting to draw me to the sleepy spot so he can snuggle up. I think he's a smart kitty.
So I just emptied 1800 messages out of one of my mailboxes and hopefully as a result I should be able to get my domain up and running. I was finally able to send in the host change request form. Yay! I hope it works!
I feel very banal today. This week, in fact. I could be extravagant and go for the whole year. Thing is - is saying so low-self-esteem in action or just being realistic? I don't think it makes me a bad person or not worthwhile, but I also know that I'm not the most interesting or productive person in the world right now, and...
bah. Sleep first. Then madrig-hells. Then I come home and either sleep some more or compile the food list of things I need to buy. Then sometime this weekend I will go shopping, so I can severely restrict my diet and hopefully GET BETTER!
