shaky señora's art therapy lessons

I've been having little anxious stomach-flutters since about Thursday. These come and go. I wish they would go away. If they keep up long enough, I turn into a sock-monkey-clutching wreck. They're mild right now, but irritating. It's like a constant feeling that you've forgotten to do something very important. If I'm still up in a few hours, I might try to go for a long walk or something. Aside from driving a block to pick up breakfast food a few days ago, I don't think I have been out since Wednesday or Thursday.

I've knit about 1/3 of the back of a sleeveless sweater I'm working on, Essence from Rowan... 29? Sometimes the knitting - fast, rhythmic action - helps to sink the strange floating spot in my stomach. Mostly not. The project is too long-term to provide immediate relief.

Maybe I'll go paint something. I got my copy of moderngypsy's fab Out of Bounds: How to Alter A Book II in the mail the other day, and experimenting with gooey stuff might make me feel better. I don't feel bad. I could feel more settled, less atwitter and haunted. The point is that doing something creative with my hands usually helps me disregard these seeds of panic.

we're making progress

The insomniac actually passed out in bed for several hours this morning (4-6 AM, for those keeping track). My whole life is something like: either I cannot sleep, or I cannot do anything but sleep. Hélas!

I had mildly grandiose plans that involved going out and getting salads from Panera, being Lady Bountiful, etc., and then going to the bookstore to scope some books that are sitting in my Amazon cart. (Yes, I got paid. I also ordered the remainder of the books that I needed for intensefragilty from ABEbooks. There are a few, more common books still waiting on Amazon.) However, I am just too tired and achy, and I think I'm going to settle in for another 2-hour nap or something. Meh. I'm hungry, but there really isn't much food in the house. I might scavenge.

If I went to the post office, I bet my Two Towers cds from defensor are waiting in the PO box and i bet i could get them and sit around and watch them. but the post office is not a nap. so.