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note to self: pay less attention to contour and more attention to shading.

i worked on my forgery piece for most of the evening and realised that i have sort of tragically screwed it up by laying in all the heavy black spots first instead of last. must build up pieces rather than start strong and dilute them with erasing, smudging, etc. see, i learned something today.

talking with jet for the first time in a few weeks was nice; i hope she can tear herself away from oni and alice for a while more often. i'm the opposite - computer games i buy never get played - i'm always either away from the computer or doing something online or doing some web design/content crap (uh, does this count as content? i really need to work on actual sites). i've had sheep and the sims for most of the year and never played them. i'm waiting for civ: call to power 2 to get cheaper; i might play that. and i also have a neglected playstation, and some cool games for it.

but on the good side i have really been reading a lot again in the past few months. for a while i never read anything because i was too easily distracted. and that is painful for someone who used to happily finish 3+ longish books each week. i think it was my relapse in the fall that did it... remembering how slowly each page of genji went.

i'm tired, talking to ragdoll but i'll have to say goodnight. i have class in about 12 hours, and i'll be using probably 2-3 of them tomorrow afternoon to finish off my drawing (as much as I can before class... i have a feeling i'll be taking it home and doing revisions, maybe even a second attempt). then five collages after class, but three are in Illustrator so it's all good.

D-cat

D-cat died in the hospital last night.

He didn't die of the kidney failure, but without doing an autopsy they can't be sure, and we don't want them to do it... it won't change that he didn't make it. There were many signs on his tests that he might have had cancer, but they didn't want to try to fully diagnose or treat it until his kidneys were stabilized.

I am sad that he is gone... he was a big squishy lovey monster kitty with the prettiest eyes in the world... but at the same time, happy that we did not have to have him euthanized and that he went on his own when he was ready.

rate-a-date

I took the ecrush rate-a-date test thingy that i got from kricker and thiefcatcher72...

"Nobody Does It Better"

Holy Casanova, Batman! You are wasting your time on this test! Geez, you could've even written this thing!

You're a catch, a prize.

You are the rarest of dates - the kind that someone wants both to take home to mom and get wikked with.

In fact... uh, do you have any plans for tonight?

*crooked smile*

in other news, I'm still bummed about the D-cat. I was going to reply to all the messages ppl left thursday and friday but i haven't gotten the chance yet and now... *sigh*. but i really do appreciate everyone's good wishes from a few days ago and condolences this afternoon. :) you are good peeps.

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it's been a day.

nothing reduces me to the feeling of a seventh-grader who has to "sit out" because she didn't "dress out" in her gym clothes faster than my life drawing class. Thankfully, i don't feel like the weakest artist there at all, but I have problems from time to time.

went to denny's for supper after class. scrambled eggs with veggies and skillet potatos. mmm, nutrition.

looked at halloween crap at walmart. they have a lot of hilarious adult costumes this year. most of the female costumes are built on some variation of this "medieval" thing they've cooked up... must be seen to be believed.

now i'm home and tired and achy, like i want to sleep for a week, but there are some assignments to finish which MUST be turned in tomorrow whether or not I am there. d-cat's irretrievability still hasn't really yet sunk in. poor little zen dudeling.