Feb. 10th, 2001

Tonight we ended up doing the bookstore thing. I got the new Jonathan Carroll book, which made me happy. Mum got two cds. I was lookin' like a Japanese teenager again: long denim skirt with slit up back, black tights and ballet flats, a stripey ribbed sweater with little belled cuffs that cover the palm of the hand, a Fine French Kitty bobby pin holding back (most of) my bangs, my black furry handbag.

The last few times I have done the Study At The Bookstore thing, I've become monumentally irritated with people around me. I realise it's not a library, but it's also rude to carry on a conversation in a bar-level voice (IE, a loud conversation) when someone is playing live music and the people around you are obviously enjoying it. Last week it was two men standing literally right over me talking about $3000 watches, which I found somewhat repellent, but they seemed affable enough. At another place, recently, it was a woman who was clearly trying to charm her companion by laughing long and loud at every single thing he said... which would have been OK once or twice, but was kind of irritating after three straight hours in an otherwise-quiet place.

Tonight's gang really took the cake. A man and a woman who'd met in a singles chatroom, probably in their late 40s (him) to late 50s (her). This disgusting creep went on and on about how his ex-wife waited on him hand and foot while they were married, now waits on their son, and still waits on him when he comes over. He dumped her when he thought she got boring, and encourages his son to do the same. He spent a full half-hour bragging about his suits, and claiming that he can size someone up in three minutes and sell them anything he wants to in thirty. The woman wasn't as bad, but she laughed at every sickening thing this guy said. I don't know, it is hard to describe, but this man was so... NOTHING... and so arrogant. I can understand, if not condone, arrogance in people who are greatly intelligent or greatly attractive. Additionally, if someone were just a really interesting or nice person it would be easy to gloss over mild personal failings. This guy wasn't handsome, or intelligent, or interesting, or nice. What a waste. It scares me that this is how the rest of the world sees the stereotypical American. It scares me that there are a lot of "ordinary, law-abiding" people like that out there... they'll never do anything bad enough to get their name in the paper, but their souls are entirely malignant in a small, banal way.

(& I really am too polite to just lean over and say "Shut the fuck up, podboy. The whole café isn't interested in how big you think your dick is." Shame, that.)

Other than that, it was a decent night. I think I'm going to hit the sack soon.
I can't sleep. Too hot, too hungry. After hours of tossing and turning, I finally got up and lowered the ambient temperature and ate a MacIntosh apple, my favorite kind, larger than you usually see but not as nice as the organic ones from Wild Oats.

I've felt malnutritioned the past few days but have been unable, for various reasons, to make it to the grocery store (a major reason being that my mom hates it and would rather do anything than make time for grocery shopping; another being that I slept through the time I'd set aside for it the other day). I'm so hungry right now. Since I woke up Friday afternoon, after not a lot of sleep, I've consumed:

*several glasses of water
*one "just add boiling water" cup of Fantastic Foods Maple Raisin 3Grain cereal
*one large cup honey ginseng green tea
*one turkey club croissant sandwich with lettuce and tomato
*one serving white corn tortilla chips
*one cup flavored coffee
*half cup flavored decaf coffee
*a little bit of a brownie, maybe 1/2"x2"
*two wheat-free blueberry toaster waffles
*one wheat-free chocolate-chip pecan shortbread cookie
*one macintosh apple

I have no ideas. I'm VERY hungry, for... hm... just about anything, though on a more conscious level I know that I need more vegetables. I should have had enough protein; I should be fine on carbs. There just isn't a whole lot to eat, especially in terms of Things That Would Hit The Spot. What I really want right now is a great big salad.

Mom is missing her class today; she's in bed with a nasty migraine. She had already taken some painkillers when I found her crying and about to throw up in her room. I got her some Migraine Ice patches (for the forehead and the back of her neck), which I have found soothing when I've had bad headaches in the recent past, and I made sure her room was dark and that she had everything she needed to drink and such. What else is there to do? When someone is sick like that the best thing to do is whatever you can to make them comfortable as quickly as possible, then get the heck out of their way.

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