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I just started this thing.

I have a headache. Bad. My eye socket is throbbing. I haven't eaten enough today, either.

I have been spending too much money and need to scale back. I think it's maybe not a good thing that when I'm bored or lonely, I go shopping. On the other hand, I got some really nifty shoes, which you can see here. I did not pay nearly that much for them, though. I also got some kilt-skirts, one solid black and one red plaid, and a white tshirt with a picture of a freaky doll on it in red glitter that says "Demolition Doll".

I have been having a pretty blah week. All the art I've done for school has been sucky and dull. I'm very PMSy, and I feel like I have no skill or creativity, which is not the case. (I also feel socially inept and lame, lame, lame.) But it's making me think that maybe I should go back to being a literature major, or go into being an art history major, and give up this whole design ambition. On the other hand, I went to the museum today and saw things by Holly Lane and Jane Hammond and Remedios Varo, and fell in love with art all over again. So maybe when I am not PMSy anymore I will feel more like an art student again. I bought pastels because another girl in class has been using them and I like the effects she has been getting. I've never worked with pastels - we don't have a "pastels" class at my school - so I am looking forward to playing with them. I have done some of my favorite drawings in conte crayon and I think pastels are pretty much the same, particularly Prismacolor NuPastels like I got.

Oh, yeah, I put in waist-length pigtail-style falls of burgundy zizibraid the other day. I didn't wear them today because my head hurt too much. Most people said positive things about them and thought they were neat. one girl, who is just out of high school and kind of negative in outlook, immediately said "it's too bad that the color difference is so noticeable." I was like, "Gee, thanks, I needed that."

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I ate chips and salsa. I feel better. I need to go to sleep soon. I want to read and get things done! Bills are unpaid! Eek!

Here are some links for the artists I mentioned:

Jane Hammond

Remedios Varo

Holly Lane

The Women is on, but it's past my bedtime. I'm talking to friends on AIM and need to wash my face. I'm never going to finish any of my work OR read my books if I hang around online too much, so it's a good thing that this laptop is going back to its proper owner this week. I will miss it! It's the notebook-of-love. Hearts and flowers! The only thing I love almost as much is my Dymo LetraTag labelmaker... I've gone crazy labelling my school supplies (requested by the profs because the supplies are expensive and there are so many floating around).

Now, me and my kitten and my Bubbles Powerpuff doll are going to curl up and snooze. In the morning, kittens.

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raar. I've been up for a while, with hellacious cramps, watching American Geisha. When I was around ten years old, this crazy friend of mine was totally obsessed with Japan, and this was her favorite movie. I can't really see why it would attract an eight or nine-year-old girl, but it was the eighties, so who knows.

I need to pay bills and buy my plane ticket, so that is how I plan to spend most of the afternoon. Thrilling. At some point I need to get some more food into the house, since I don't have much. I have a lot of work to do this weekend and don't plan to do much else, but there is some pressure from friends because it's a holiday weekend.

I had strange dreams last night, dealing with the most recent ex. I have always dreamt about him a lot, I don't know why. I don't even talk to him anymore. V. was in this dream too and was trying to tell me gossip about him over the phone as I was standing there talking to him. Tons of other things happened in the dream but it was the usual sort of dream I have about him... joint pursuit of each other, hero worship, jealousy, gossip, etc.

The geisha movie is over. I so need to pay bills... my car tag is expired and I need to get a new one! I got a ticket last month and I need to pay it before they suspend my license! etc. :)

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oh, yeah, and my head feels a little better today. Could have something to do with the tons of medication I've taken for my cramps.

Later tonight I am going to set up my new computer! yay!