I think... I am resenful more than the guys I've dated. I'm in touch with the good ones, for the most part. But most I would not be in touch with if you paid me. But they weren't nice, either.
This guy, today... we were never involved or anything, just... had an attraction, I think. But he lives really far away from me - I met him at an event that was in neither of our home cities - and when I met him, he was going through a divorce from basically the only girl he'd ever dated, after being married for like two years. & I was getting over a REALLY bad breakup (of a longdistance relationship) & not ready to get involved with anyone, least of all another LD guy.
trust just gets harder and harder. i'm naturally secretive and suspicious. then i think, really, who cares? nobody cares about some of the things i hide, nobody's interested. it's not like i'm running for president, it's not like things that have happened to me are terribly unusual. I just have a greater need for privacy than some people, I guess, and I think it is my family's fault - my mom was very intrusive when I was little, and all of her brothers are very harsh teasers.
i dunno. at the very least i think it's definite that there are certain things one should never ever tell certain people. :) aside from that, there is a lot of grey area.
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Re: Cautious
Date: 2001-07-03 09:24 pm (UTC)This guy, today... we were never involved or anything, just... had an attraction, I think. But he lives really far away from me - I met him at an event that was in neither of our home cities - and when I met him, he was going through a divorce from basically the only girl he'd ever dated, after being married for like two years. & I was getting over a REALLY bad breakup (of a longdistance relationship) & not ready to get involved with anyone, least of all another LD guy.
trust just gets harder and harder. i'm naturally secretive and suspicious. then i think, really, who cares? nobody cares about some of the things i hide, nobody's interested. it's not like i'm running for president, it's not like things that have happened to me are terribly unusual. I just have a greater need for privacy than some people, I guess, and I think it is my family's fault - my mom was very intrusive when I was little, and all of her brothers are very harsh teasers.
i dunno. at the very least i think it's definite that there are certain things one should never ever tell certain people. :) aside from that, there is a lot of grey area.