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I'm sitting here looking at pages related not specifically to CFIDS but to candidiasis, which is what I am trying to treat right now. Since it's largely an "alternative" area of medicine, there isn't a consensus on what should be done, what to take, what foods to avoid... and 99% of information pages are selling their own specific product.
Some say no sweeteners at all, but cheeses are OK as long as they aren't moldy. Some say stevia and, after a week or so, fruit, are OK as sweeteners, but no cheese is allowed whatsoever. The contradictions just go on and on.
& finally it came to me in a big swelling of misery... I am so tired of being ill. I have been ill very frequently since 1987, with some reprieves here and there; I have almost certainly been ill for the past twelve to eighteen months with virtually no reprieves (if my head doesn't hurt, I have a sore throat or an ear infection; if not that, I have a churning stomachache; if not that, all my joints ache like mad).
So I'm angry and sad and I don't know what to do... I'm just tired of feeling this way. One thing, though... I'm not going to fucking cry.
Some say no sweeteners at all, but cheeses are OK as long as they aren't moldy. Some say stevia and, after a week or so, fruit, are OK as sweeteners, but no cheese is allowed whatsoever. The contradictions just go on and on.
& finally it came to me in a big swelling of misery... I am so tired of being ill. I have been ill very frequently since 1987, with some reprieves here and there; I have almost certainly been ill for the past twelve to eighteen months with virtually no reprieves (if my head doesn't hurt, I have a sore throat or an ear infection; if not that, I have a churning stomachache; if not that, all my joints ache like mad).
So I'm angry and sad and I don't know what to do... I'm just tired of feeling this way. One thing, though... I'm not going to fucking cry.
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besides... where would we get really yummy food from if we lived all alone on an island?
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i'm thinking monkeys sound good. but small ones. and then they would also be pets and hang out with us and entertain us by setting up complicated poo-flinging olympic competitions.
in the magic mountain, most of the waiters at the sanatorium seem to be dwarfs.
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i can only imagine how frustrating and depressing it would be to feel like crap ALL the time.
you are way too young to be going through this sort of thing...
i wish i could suggest something really wonderful, but its a mysterious condition you've got.
you are a very smart and very sweet girl... and you possess all sorts of great qualities with which to work. hang in there, and try to keep your stress levels low. is there any sort of magical pill the doctor could give you for your more frequent complaints? i would think there would be, and that you've either tried it with no luck, or are currently on it and its not helping. bleh.
i hope something turns up to give you relief soon.
have you been feeling stressed lately? i'm not the authority on CFS, but i think i remember stress having something to do with it being extra bothersome...
maybe you should get some more tests to see if there are any other nagging problems that aren't being accounted for (?)
i don't know. i wish i could fix you.
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and yeah, lots of stress. tons of stress starting from the time my stepfather went into the hospital a few years ago. it's gotten better in the past few months, i'll admit, but i'm still not FEELING all that great. poo.
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