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I'm sitting here looking at pages related not specifically to CFIDS but to candidiasis, which is what I am trying to treat right now. Since it's largely an "alternative" area of medicine, there isn't a consensus on what should be done, what to take, what foods to avoid... and 99% of information pages are selling their own specific product.
Some say no sweeteners at all, but cheeses are OK as long as they aren't moldy. Some say stevia and, after a week or so, fruit, are OK as sweeteners, but no cheese is allowed whatsoever. The contradictions just go on and on.
& finally it came to me in a big swelling of misery... I am so tired of being ill. I have been ill very frequently since 1987, with some reprieves here and there; I have almost certainly been ill for the past twelve to eighteen months with virtually no reprieves (if my head doesn't hurt, I have a sore throat or an ear infection; if not that, I have a churning stomachache; if not that, all my joints ache like mad).
So I'm angry and sad and I don't know what to do... I'm just tired of feeling this way. One thing, though... I'm not going to fucking cry.
Some say no sweeteners at all, but cheeses are OK as long as they aren't moldy. Some say stevia and, after a week or so, fruit, are OK as sweeteners, but no cheese is allowed whatsoever. The contradictions just go on and on.
& finally it came to me in a big swelling of misery... I am so tired of being ill. I have been ill very frequently since 1987, with some reprieves here and there; I have almost certainly been ill for the past twelve to eighteen months with virtually no reprieves (if my head doesn't hurt, I have a sore throat or an ear infection; if not that, I have a churning stomachache; if not that, all my joints ache like mad).
So I'm angry and sad and I don't know what to do... I'm just tired of feeling this way. One thing, though... I'm not going to fucking cry.