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It took me hours to fall asleep last night, and I don't think I was successful until around 4AM or so.
My mom called me at 230. She had been out with her older brother and with his daughter, who is two years older than me. My cousin thinks my mom is a "really great person." This led into my mother telling me that she had told my cousin that she wasn't a great mother when I was younger. Then she said to me that in the fights we have had in the last few years, I have made her confront things that she did and realise that she really didn't do the best she could for me, she did the best she could do for herself, controlled by fear and an inability to trust (IE, why she never got psychological help), and I was kind of along for the ride. It hadn't occurred to her until we had all these fights that they were two different things. It was an interesting conversation because I didn't do anything to prompt it, and I didn't say much besides "hm. hmmmm."
And then I slept through until about 1PM, and when I woke up The Last Days of Disco was on, but I didn't really feel like watching it. I've been puttering around the house, eating Cheerios, doing laundry, and so on. FedEx still hasn't come back yet. I'm not really going to expect them until later this evening.
My mom called me at 230. She had been out with her older brother and with his daughter, who is two years older than me. My cousin thinks my mom is a "really great person." This led into my mother telling me that she had told my cousin that she wasn't a great mother when I was younger. Then she said to me that in the fights we have had in the last few years, I have made her confront things that she did and realise that she really didn't do the best she could for me, she did the best she could do for herself, controlled by fear and an inability to trust (IE, why she never got psychological help), and I was kind of along for the ride. It hadn't occurred to her until we had all these fights that they were two different things. It was an interesting conversation because I didn't do anything to prompt it, and I didn't say much besides "hm. hmmmm."
And then I slept through until about 1PM, and when I woke up The Last Days of Disco was on, but I didn't really feel like watching it. I've been puttering around the house, eating Cheerios, doing laundry, and so on. FedEx still hasn't come back yet. I'm not really going to expect them until later this evening.
